Level Up

Why did we forget ourselves and? Why do we have to remember?

We have to remember who we are at all times so that we can be the single ray of consciousness that we are. The calm face that I saw is our identity or rather the essence of that figure is our identity. The further away we are from that center, the more comical we look. If we remember who we are, we will never act silly because being that requires absolute integrity on principles and being a true human. While we are totally aware, we can "pretend" to be silly just for fun, but we cannot "be" silly. If we remember this at all times, we can get to the next level where everyone abides by the eternal laws at all times and can see cosmic dance for what it is. What happens from there? A says this group then evolves to understand the mass consciousness and proceeds from there to get to the next level. When does this leveling up stops?

Note to Self

People will learn when they have to learn. Their experience comes from their being. I should let go. My experiences are carving my path that I can already see. I just need to fully accept it. 

Core

Every time I lose track of the core; the force shakes me back to the path. Every time I have forgotten that feeling; there has been a rude awakening. It wants me to focus and prioritize on it - in return it will take care of me. 

For me..

4/22 - another episode that made me extremely grateful. The universe knows what’s it’s doing. It is I who should not even question that. Everything that is happening is for me. If that force is taking care of me with so much love; I should not be worried at all. It is all for me; it is all for me. 

Yog

All my planned or accidental mediative attempts have resulted in distinct differentiation of sooksham and sthool - vibrations  resulting in feeling heaviness and lightness at the same time. They separate out and it implies that the lightness can move around. It can move around without me leaving the spot. I was floating but I was also connected. 

I have experienced that movement once - where I move so fast that I can see myself connected with the whole. 

#soundbath #experiences

Puzzle

When I finally recognized the importance of a connection, all I can say is that things fell in their place. Everything. Sometimes to view something clearly, we need to pan out - to see the whole picture - why did something happen the way it happened. It's as if a jigsaw puzzle started making sense. You see, it seems chaotic, when the puzzle pieces are handed to you one by one but once it creates some sort of pattern upon slow, painful connections - it suddenly fits and makes sense. You know it is a particular pattern. You do not have the full picture yet, but you have a sense of where this is going. That sense itself is calming because it implies there is a direction and hence a meaningful end. It's not all wasted, it's not all inexplaniable - it means something. To a seemingly directionless soul, this means a lot. 

You see, the soul is not lost - it never was. 

Like a friend told to me - "To be stuck in the Phantom zone only to realize that one was Superman" all this while! 

Home

• The expectation of permanence from mortals is naive. That kind of state can only be achieved with self and the extension of self (Atman and Paramatman). 
• This thought brings freedom - to do anything without expecting anything from anyone. The subconscious fear of change cannot drive self anymore. 
• What we seek in the other, already exists in us. Only we can fulfill ourselves completely. Others can only be catalysts and can make us think/realize alone. That's their role. The actual realization needs to come from us. 
• Any change induced in self to be accepted by others is an aberration. It is wrong. It is self harming. 
• Remember, who you are. 
• The presence I was looking for in my own home is already living there. What freedom and what joy! I come back to the home that already has that presence. 
• We are all alone in this journey, truly alone. Everyone and everything else around us just helps us till we need their help to come to this realization. This realization is not an unhappy one. It is very liberating; as if some weight has lifted. It brings satisfaction and joy of finally knowing. 
• It is my job to be present for others but I cannot make them evolve till they themselves are ready to evolve. 
• So now that I know this, let me have a nice time and do everything that I love to do!

This week in March

This week has been defined by 2 names: 

1. Maye Musk

2. Robert Scoble

And just as I was searching for something else, Brian Roemmele's note: 

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back — concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.

Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”—Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, 1773

PS: On ClubHouse, it was Rinpoche Shyalpa. He confirmed that I am on the right track. 

Within me..

This entire phase where I cannot lean on anyone has been created for the growth of me! Oh what joy.. for once I know that I have everything that I need within me. This discovery makes me so happy. It was always in me, that what I was looking for, outside of me.

My choices of people, situation arose from the fact that I did not know myself better. Hah! I was looking for everything that was always within me :-)

Ecstatic

Totally loving every moment that life is unfolding in front of me. It is wonderful to be alive with the realization and sensation that universe is on my side - as it is on everyone’s side. Nothing is missing. Everything is happening to create a beautiful me!

Grateful 🙏 

Thankful 🙏

Blessed 🙏

Laws of Universe

It does give me great comfort to know that universe is just. It's just because it follows the laws - just because we ignore those laws or care less to know about them does not mean they do not exist or play out.

These laws are as true as the law of gravity whose impact can be visualized. Just as a fruit will always fall on the ground or a river will flow downstream, the state a person finds himself in at any given time is a direct result of common universal laws. Pay attention.

We have to look within and we have to see the patterns. 

Ring

Universe conspires to get your greatest wish fulfilled. There was no way I could have found my thumb ring, given where it was. Yet I found it, magically after a 5-6 days of losing it! I am happy :)

"We dance round in a ring and suppose,

But the Secret sits in the middle and knows."
-Robert Frost