Senses

This world contains filth, sadness, pain and exploitation as much as it contains the opposites. We crave the opposites but hate the filth. We cannot stand the brutalities and those facts / stories haunt us. We try to forget and behave as if those things do not exist. But they do. It is after all the other side of the coin. Its the absence of something that makes something else so valuable. Hence has to be treated with equanimity because it is as precious or not. 

Also, it is a mind game. We are all diseased and plagued by our minds - so we get what we think we deserve at the moment. If we cannot imagine or believe something better, we won't be able to overcome what is. But for that first, we need to know what even is the current state. Are we even able to objectively see our current states? Does that not get colored by our conditioning? So what is real then? Is it what we feel or is it what we think that we are feeling?

The world is experienced through 5 senses - sight, smell, taste, hearing and feeling - that is real. Not what the conditioning explains those senses are sensing. Can we differentiate? I am sitting on the couch and that is real. Everything else about that state will be a story that I will tell myself or others.  

Nike :D

In one of the sessions, I had asked my friend to note down "we need to do it so that we can remember". Interestingly, in that moment, I knew "what had to be remembered". It was super clear like I was feeling "what that was". 

Yesterday I tried explaining that again. It is the source, the starting point, the purity, the bliss - the point from where everything just went south and has been unable to recover. It's like the algorithm went rouge and never recovered. It learnt and learnt and was totally unable to remember what it was before it learnt anything. That point is bliss. We see glimpses of it but we are unable to sustain or maintain that state. It is in order to remember and be in that moment, that we need to do it. 

Just do it. 

The Buddha

The world has become desensitized - every form of pain, sorrow and suffering has been normalized. How can the insensitive even understand this?

Where are my people at?

I'd like to reach out and talk to people at a level that I can see they are at - however, my approaching them changes the whole dynamic and spoils the taste. 

Note to Self

People will learn when they have to learn. Their experience comes from their being. I should let go. My experiences are carving my path that I can already see. I just need to fully accept it. 

Insensitive

I have not been able to process of insensitivity meted out to a person I knew by his own "people" to date. I saw people turn; fans and followers change - to an extent that it gave a spotlight to the loneliness. 

Sensitive people are collecting enough data about the world and then they tend to crash. I say, be sensitive and develop a thick skin. Do not forget - so that you can ignore completely.