Grateful

Without a suitable friend, this journey can be so long and straining. This friend can listen and ideate; convey and explain; relate and retaliate - overall the experience then becomes of going through something together. So it’s bearable, the journey and it feels worthwhile. Even though it may all be meaningless, it’s meaningful in those moment. For this, I am grateful.

Unconditional

It is possible to miss someone we love, even as we are pretty much sitting right next to them. I'd not been able to understand this but I think yesterday I was able to see that for a moment. It's wild. It's wild because I now understand the amount of unconditional love this needs. We miss someone like this when we can see them as they are and we find that extremely endearing. Gosh! 

Puzzle

When I finally recognized the importance of a connection, all I can say is that things fell in their place. Everything. Sometimes to view something clearly, we need to pan out - to see the whole picture - why did something happen the way it happened. It's as if a jigsaw puzzle started making sense. You see, it seems chaotic, when the puzzle pieces are handed to you one by one but once it creates some sort of pattern upon slow, painful connections - it suddenly fits and makes sense. You know it is a particular pattern. You do not have the full picture yet, but you have a sense of where this is going. That sense itself is calming because it implies there is a direction and hence a meaningful end. It's not all wasted, it's not all inexplaniable - it means something. To a seemingly directionless soul, this means a lot. 

You see, the soul is not lost - it never was. 

Like a friend told to me - "To be stuck in the Phantom zone only to realize that one was Superman" all this while! 

In Love

"If your soul is not ready to surrender to another soul, don't tell anyone you're in love."

- Shams Tabrez

Path you Walk

“The path you are walking originates from discovering who you are and embracing your true nature and value. It originates from your love for yourself. It originates from self respect and willingness to stand up for yourself. It stems from self belief.”

“Doubts that you get, anxiety that feel originates from “how will I be perceived”. It stems from the need to fit in, to be what is considered normal by people around you, to not stick out. We hate being judged because we want to be accepted and included. But true acceptance and inclusion comes only from people who are at our level. Else it starts feeling like a farce. Remember the feeling you have when you look back at how you were trying to fit in. How you wonder that you wasted so much time trying to buy acceptance? That is the path this doubt and anxiety wants you to walk again.”

What you need is not to elevate people or wait for them to accept you, but to find better class of people.

Words from a dear friend in times of self doubt. 

Dil Beparwah

When the world around looks bleak and sad, there is always something that brings smile to my face. And it is invariably the connection that leads me to the one. Suddenly everything looks bright and I can laugh again. :)

Worthy

When we see something so beautiful, our soul craves the sight of it over and over. Something so beautiful, aspires the soul to try to be worthy of that beauty. 

Security

With evolution comes the understanding of self followed by understanding of others. As we understand ourselves a little better, we also learn to rise above some existing setup. Due to which we can clearly see the utility of every relationship in our life and it's exact place. All of it is there to teach us something. We just get entangled in the emotions and forget. It gets chaotic when we forget the macroscopic view.


When we rise together, we see that everything around us is perfect and for us. Security steps in with that understanding and when security is in place, we can act out of clarity and love.