US Elections

5th November - US elections mirrored Indian elections - same reasons (different players / factors), same rhetorics and same outcome. I did feel a bit lost since I was not plugged in as before in politics recently. But I made up for it and I realized that I need to pay minimum attention to what is going around. 

While the elections will have a lasting impact at home and abroad, the call out to unite and get everyone on one side sounds familiar to Indian elections again. Maybe it will not be as bad - may be the team will try to manage. But for sure, the billionaires were happy with the outcome. How is it that Indian and American politics are following the same playbook? What is going on? Can someone else see it? 

Level Up

Why did we forget ourselves and? Why do we have to remember?

We have to remember who we are at all times so that we can be the single ray of consciousness that we are. The calm face that I saw is our identity or rather the essence of that figure is our identity. The further away we are from that center, the more comical we look. If we remember who we are, we will never act silly because being that requires absolute integrity on principles and being a true human. While we are totally aware, we can "pretend" to be silly just for fun, but we cannot "be" silly. If we remember this at all times, we can get to the next level where everyone abides by the eternal laws at all times and can see cosmic dance for what it is. What happens from there? A says this group then evolves to understand the mass consciousness and proceeds from there to get to the next level. When does this leveling up stops?

Silent in the moment

The intention needs to be set up, whenever we have to get into a cosmic dance with another. Any activity requires it. During the entire interaction, the others show who they are and if both are flowing in the moment, every movement is responded to as required. If we are not in the moment, we fail to notice the specific need and we straight get to the last step or anticipated need making the process not as pleasurable. Silence helps to listen and focus on what is needed in the moment.  

When I speak up or think ahead, I interfere with the dance, I break the character. I get pulled out of the moment and appear as a cartoon character who is just parroting what should be said as per the set up. By doing this we get distracted more and we break the process further. The cosmic dance does not require us to know the next step but flowing and playing with it, we create a pleasant and just needed experience which is lacking nothing. Interestingly it is always what is wanted by the system and everyone benefits with this. When the participants are not in the moment, everyone is distracted and it further distracts everyone and the cosmic play starts to lose the fun - hence we all need to be silent. The mirroring happens during silence and the responses are better - even if the other person is caught by surprise. 

Once we are in the moment, with our silence we can hear better, participate better and respond exactly to the need. It is by going with the flow, is that I know what is needed next - not by thinking about it. And this is extended to everyone we interact with implying that intention needs to be set all over. Its all about knowing and reading the other person better so that they can know you better. Honesty is needed so we can respond to what is needed; otherwise we respond to something that's not the truth and hence spoil the process further. 

How are we so programmed? Did we do this as a shortcut?

Demons

Your demons are your old friends. You should welcome them and treat them with kindness. Make them pals with your treatment. They are not scary at all - they have stayed in the shadow too long and they need some sun. Treat them as small, spoilt kid who cannot articulate and hence creates drama. Talk to them and make them feel better. They complete you - they are parts that you hide and hence they are upset with you for abandoning them. Their wounds are festering and all of that needs your love to heal. They need your attention. 

How can I serve?

You can move from a group to another group - any group you want. Every group has a "persona" just like we have one in product management and all of those personas are equally interesting and boring depending on what you already know. To me it all seems boring and noisy and lip-service after a point. They look interesting from outside, they are all the same from inside. So depending on what one likes or wants, they can become that to join the club. What if I do not like what the clubs offer from inside but find them interesting from outside? What if I do not even want to know anymore clubs because they are all the same for me? What if nothing impresses me any more? I knew this in 2018? Why am I taking such a long route for what I already know? 

Everyone is a mixed bag.

Be in the moment.

No aversion; no attraction. 

I cannot be moved(scared / happy) by anything that I create. 

Healing of a generation

Just by being ourselves, our true and authentic selves we can show others how it is done. Some times it takes to see it up close to figure it out. 

Invokation

Sometimes when I read a book, I don't pay attention to what the author intents. I get their intention and then I go my own way with their line of thought. I play with the words he has put out on paper and see how it can get a new life of its own - in my head. Words are powerful - they invoke ideas and scenarios and hence make me think. 

After all if everything is connected then you can start anywhere and still have enough places to go - you can never not be able to connect one thing to another :) 

Faith

I am happy! The various ways in which universe reiterates and confirms is absolutely fantastic. I mean all we ever have to do is take that leap of faith. 

Yog

All my planned or accidental mediative attempts have resulted in distinct differentiation of sooksham and sthool - vibrations  resulting in feeling heaviness and lightness at the same time. They separate out and it implies that the lightness can move around. It can move around without me leaving the spot. I was floating but I was also connected. 

I have experienced that movement once - where I move so fast that I can see myself connected with the whole. 

#soundbath #experiences

Choices

One key piece of information that I had probably not understood very well to articulate some time back came to me today, as usual, when I was not looking for it. I have often thought about macro level and micro level choices. See Bandersnatch.

In my quest to understand "prarabdh" and "a man is owner of his destiny" I would fail to grasp what choices could change the destiny and what choices cannot change anything. I think the answer lies in two layers. The choice is made by a man in the moment who is the sum total of everything before him. At any given time he is hurtling towards his destiny as if gravitated by fate. Yet if in a moment, he can detach himself from the whole history and geography of things and decide to do something that is on its own merit the right thing to do, he can alter the outcome. In that moment, he may still be pulled by his destiny but he'd have altered his karma. Every time he does this little tweak in his pathway, he can make his own path a little easier and the outcome at the end of the journey is pleasantly pleasant. 

He may still be sitting in a crowded subway but he can be at peace and eating an ice cream. 

This was the New Year realization. May 2021 be filled with multiple tweaks in the right direction.

Future as a function of Present

Future = f(Present)

Future is a function of Present. It follows a curve as determined by the present. Depending on how simple or complex the present moment is, future is emerging at every given point. We are following a curve that is being generated by the value of variable "present" in real time. 

The variable "present" can be "simple" and can generate precise results or it can be "complex" resulting in a range of results which are in turn impacted by the external happenings. This variable is so, so fine and so easily impacted that it is impossible to generate a curve of choice or plan the curve. But it can be manipulated and changed just by changing the input at any given time. It's just that it requires an amount of self control and calmness that is very hard to come by. Just like a science experiment being conducted in a lab, precision and steady hands are needed - just that in this case that precision and steadiness has to be in the being and his environment to produce the desired result. 

Future is both a wave (general, rough, probable) and a particle (deterministic, exact, precisely predictable). This is because one can feed a specific input to the present moment and get a specific output or one can feed a variable range of inputs that go together to get a range of outputs. 

Consider the two sentences below - very, very crude variables as inputs.

1. Getting chocolates as present can uplift my mood in immediate future

2. Getting chocolates as a present at a time when I am rushing out to handle an emergency may or may not uplift my mood since I may be focused on the issue at hand and may depend how that present was given to me, by whom, where and exactly when.  

 I will try to get better sentences / variables to explain this but for now, this was a best I could come up with. Basically it is about tangible (particle) and intangible (wave) outcomes. 

It's interesting as I put the above on paper. I got up with this profound information and I thought I had to write it down before I forget. It felt as if I had understood something yet again. It even reminded me of interconnectedness of everything, theory of everything and just before waking up, it blew my mind. 

The meaning of Service

I think 3.5 days in, it dawned on me the real meaning of service. To serve.

When nothing can make one happy from within, service can.

Collect those smiles and build your bank balance.

Service with right intent.

Service with no expectation.

Serve who come to you.

Serve who need you.