Shakti

She sees your beauty, your woundedness, your doubts, your fears, your karmic blocks, the ways you’ve hurt others. She sees your mistakes, your longings, and your innate goodness. She sees everything that’s apparent and everything hidden. She sees you; she adores you; she holds you. She is fierce wisdom incarnate, the liberating force of grace. She is freedom itself. 

The answer lies in action and it lies in fixing self. Everyone. I have experienced it twice now. 

Why do we have to remember

I had written this some time back - Level Up

We have to remember for the sake of remembrance. Not to achieve anything. Not to meet anybody. Not to get anything at the end. Because there is nothing to get anyways. 

We have to remember because that is who we are. 

We do not want to forget ourselves. 

Everything is a path or process to remember. Whatever it takes, we must remember. 

I am more curious about how did we forget in the first place. What caused the memory loss? Was it Ms. M whose job anyways is to make us forget? Who created M - did we create it and lost control over it? The path to memory loss is easy, the path to remembrance is an uphill battle. 

Today when P said, it should be done for itself - for the sake of itself - it reminded me about this thought that had come to me about remembering. 

Level Up

Why did we forget ourselves and? Why do we have to remember?

We have to remember who we are at all times so that we can be the single ray of consciousness that we are. The calm face that I saw is our identity or rather the essence of that figure is our identity. The further away we are from that center, the more comical we look. If we remember who we are, we will never act silly because being that requires absolute integrity on principles and being a true human. While we are totally aware, we can "pretend" to be silly just for fun, but we cannot "be" silly. If we remember this at all times, we can get to the next level where everyone abides by the eternal laws at all times and can see cosmic dance for what it is. What happens from there? A says this group then evolves to understand the mass consciousness and proceeds from there to get to the next level. When does this leveling up stops?

Fear that not; be not awed

“Fear it not. Be not terrified. Be not awed. Know it to be the embodiment of thine own intellect. As it is thine own tutelary deity, be not terrified.”

It is karmic personification of your own disposition.You know them so meet them as old acquaintances.

Bundle of Contradictions

I am a bundle of contradictions. I am made up of parallel streams, these emotions and tracks that overlap and create a haze. I am all that and yet I can observe this from a distance. When I am not pulled into these contradicted states, I find all of this funny. I stay in good mood and I ensure everyone around me is in a good mood. This is a state I strive to be in. How can I always be here?

People and Relationships

People, just like things, can be a distraction. Or they can be used as tools to know and grow. Their presence and absence both can teach us something about ourselves. Do we crave someone's company because we like them? Or perhaps they give us a purpose? Do we have a common agenda? Does their presence create a structure that we think defines our being or life? Keeping a person in mind, if we can define why we need that person, we will know something about ourselves, not them - but about ourselves. 

Why should we need people really?

If we can become peers as souls on this journey of life, sharing, relating and caring a little, that would be the best reason to want people around. Detached, and yet attached. Not too much, not too little. Precious connection in those moments. THAT is why we need people. 

How can we detach and yet be attached?

We should remember that "people is a 3D concept". We should understand that each individual has their own journey which will ALWAYS differ from ours. But if their journey does align to ours, we have met someone who can be a true friend on this journey of life. We should stick to OUR own goals so that people can align, not the other way around. 

How can we transform our relationships?

We can transform our relationships by sharing our personal truth. The highest tribute one can pay to a genuine relationship is one's own personal truth knowing that it can completely break the relationship. If a person can understand or deal with this truth, they will connect at a different level, paving way for higher intimacy. If the person is baffled by it, they will move out of the circle, paving way for others who can deal with it. In both cases we have achieved the transparency that is elevating for both parties. We know where we stand with respect to each other, hence we give space to each other to grow. We don't block each other or pressurize each other to do something that adds resentment in the long run. Resentment defeats the entire purpose of a relationship. Why be with someone if their presence keeps us away from ourselves?

Grateful

Without a suitable friend, this journey can be so long and straining. This friend can listen and ideate; convey and explain; relate and retaliate - overall the experience then becomes of going through something together. So it’s bearable, the journey and it feels worthwhile. Even though it may all be meaningless, it’s meaningful in those moment. For this, I am grateful.

Unconditional

It is possible to miss someone we love, even as we are pretty much sitting right next to them. I'd not been able to understand this but I think yesterday I was able to see that for a moment. It's wild. It's wild because I now understand the amount of unconditional love this needs. We miss someone like this when we can see them as they are and we find that extremely endearing. Gosh! 

New Year, New Post!

Past two months have been this crazy or what! No updates here since Nov... :)

I recovered from the Holiday mood just this past weekend probably. Was able to get into the normal rhythm of things. First hike of the year was long pending. Hoping to be more regular there. 

I love walking aimless in cities, towns and in nature. It's my personal meditation. All I need is a light backpack with essentials, my phone, extra batteries and good walking shoes. I love it! 

My happy place :D

             

Yog

All my planned or accidental mediative attempts have resulted in distinct differentiation of sooksham and sthool - vibrations  resulting in feeling heaviness and lightness at the same time. They separate out and it implies that the lightness can move around. It can move around without me leaving the spot. I was floating but I was also connected. 

I have experienced that movement once - where I move so fast that I can see myself connected with the whole. 

#soundbath #experiences

Home

• The expectation of permanence from mortals is naive. That kind of state can only be achieved with self and the extension of self (Atman and Paramatman). 
• This thought brings freedom - to do anything without expecting anything from anyone. The subconscious fear of change cannot drive self anymore. 
• What we seek in the other, already exists in us. Only we can fulfill ourselves completely. Others can only be catalysts and can make us think/realize alone. That's their role. The actual realization needs to come from us. 
• Any change induced in self to be accepted by others is an aberration. It is wrong. It is self harming. 
• Remember, who you are. 
• The presence I was looking for in my own home is already living there. What freedom and what joy! I come back to the home that already has that presence. 
• We are all alone in this journey, truly alone. Everyone and everything else around us just helps us till we need their help to come to this realization. This realization is not an unhappy one. It is very liberating; as if some weight has lifted. It brings satisfaction and joy of finally knowing. 
• It is my job to be present for others but I cannot make them evolve till they themselves are ready to evolve. 
• So now that I know this, let me have a nice time and do everything that I love to do!

In the moment

To be in the moment means giving all the attention to who and what is in front - without any other thoughts than what should be needed for the moment. It truly connects one with the another. 

Self Portraits

I had seen this sometime back and had wondered. People were joking about this I think. As I was lying down today, thinking about life and self, I got reminded of this. And today I do understand the underlying concept truly. I don’t know if it was Picasso’s concept - pardon me, I have not looked up his thoughts on any of those paintings. I believe that experiences of a person alter his so called image in time. It’s truly with time and experience one realizes that there is no image, no persona - just a mixture of parts and roles and thoughts and experiences one has had. There is no image that can be called as just this one. Entropy increases with time and the concept of self expands to remove the boundaries. There is just a bundle of interesting and strange experiences. So much so one cannot recall how it was to be anything at any given time in life. So his self portrait at 90 does seem correct and plausible. In fact it is the only thing that makes sense: one lifetime of different experiences that could be almost called different lives - none or all of them - that one can relate to. 

It is great to be alive. 

I’d have liked 3 folks to have met. It would’ve been fun to observe.
It is impossible in every way now. 🙄😁

Pure

Our purpose in anyone's life is to make them think and lead by example. So just by being ourselves, we are doing the task. Just by being our true self, we are purifying our soul and everyone who comes in contact will learn. They have no choice but to notice the difference.

Whatever the ego teaches or the conditional upbringing or experiences are picked up - they all melt away when we come face to face with a pure soul. 

Intention and Self

I had written this note - https://bluejays-mockingbirds.blogspot.com/2017/06/intentions.html

I always understood this but the strongest proof came within 2 months or so of writing this post.

Know yourself.
Knowing yourself, you can understand your intentions.
Knowing your intention, you can make your choices.
And those choices result in actions leading to the aligned result.

The outcome has been decided at the intention level. If you do not know yourself - your intention, choices, actions and hence results will not align to you / your expectations. And just by this process we can create our present/future. We can predict the outcome, if we know the intention.

Knowing your own self is the highest pursuit. Finding and creating your own self gives the highest satisfaction.

Knowing our own-self, we know that higher force that connects all of us. 

Let there be Light...

When the soul is positive and vibrating at a higher frequency, it is like a room that has enough natural light and ventilation. It feels inviting, clean and calm. Similarly a close, cluttered, dirty room reflects a suppressed, dissatisfied soul.

Let there be light within and around you. Let there be freshness around you. Sweet smell, calming sounds and simple tasteful food.

Let your soul breath and revive after a long day. 

Soul Food

We've heard about it or read about it or seen it depicted on silver screen but very few of us have experienced it - the form of companionship that transcends space, time and lifetimes. It is when we are ourselves and are accepted, no compromises or adjustments. It is like you are half a puzzle and then you find the other half of the puzzle which puts the puzzle in perspective and makes it complete at the same time.

It is felt in the depth of the soul for that is where this friendship resides. It is never in a hurry and yet it arrives just in time. It does not feel overbearing and never drives an agenda. It understands in a statement or less. It is so simple that it borders imaginary yet the complexity is mind-boggling. It radiates positivity. It cannot exist in filth or intentions of another kind. 

It does exist. 

It does exist

But to achieve that, one needs to be a worthy recipient. 

retreat

I have to document this before I head out to my retreat. I hope I am not let down by the experience. I hope the 10 days are worth it. If not, it should turn out to be a good outing experience at minimum.

Each of us have our own path to walk.

Though the fun part is, I can see how it is all linked and inter related. Everything and every moment. How things happen as a flow and could have only happened since the parameters were set like that.

How energy of people shift and as they shift attraction and repulsion are caused automatically.

How everything impacts everyone.

How a small change in me causes a bigger change in my children. They, by the way, can quote Mahamrityunjaya Mantra and more. And I would get proud when they could identify a Michael Jackson song at one time - seems a long time ago.

How my intention plays out my life.

How I want to reduce my actions to increase the impact

How I can literally see this playing out in front of me in slow motion.

Life is the most beautiful thing to have ever happened to anyone. Only if they look closer to see the cosmic plan in action - its riveting.