Demons

Your demons are your old friends. You should welcome them and treat them with kindness. Make them pals with your treatment. They are not scary at all - they have stayed in the shadow too long and they need some sun. Treat them as small, spoilt kid who cannot articulate and hence creates drama. Talk to them and make them feel better. They complete you - they are parts that you hide and hence they are upset with you for abandoning them. Their wounds are festering and all of that needs your love to heal. They need your attention. 

Fear that not; be not awed

“Fear it not. Be not terrified. Be not awed. Know it to be the embodiment of thine own intellect. As it is thine own tutelary deity, be not terrified.”

It is karmic personification of your own disposition.You know them so meet them as old acquaintances.

Freedom

Create space or rather free up your headspace for creativity. Everything else is just a waste of time! Freedom is above all. 

For me..

4/22 - another episode that made me extremely grateful. The universe knows what’s it’s doing. It is I who should not even question that. Everything that is happening is for me. If that force is taking care of me with so much love; I should not be worried at all. It is all for me; it is all for me. 

Healing of a generation

Just by being ourselves, our true and authentic selves we can show others how it is done. Some times it takes to see it up close to figure it out. 

Cycling

When we learn to cycle, the first thing we realize that how hard it is to balance. So we wobble, a little to the left and a little to the right.

In order to practice detached-attachment, we have to let go and let in, over and over again so that we can understand what is the right distance that should be maintained. It is difficult to be in it and observe it but if we can observe it, we can work on it. Every sign of anguish is a sign of frustration actually - just like a child who is learning to walk. You know it, yet you cannot do it. 

Grateful

Without a suitable friend, this journey can be so long and straining. This friend can listen and ideate; convey and explain; relate and retaliate - overall the experience then becomes of going through something together. So it’s bearable, the journey and it feels worthwhile. Even though it may all be meaningless, it’s meaningful in those moment. For this, I am grateful.

Choice

What we choose over and over again, chooses us.

If we decide to choose money over anything else, every time - we will eventually get rich but we may lose other things that we decided to ignore.

If we decide to choose true love over anything else, every time - we will eventually find true love at the cost of a lot of things.

If we decide to choose worldly (external) success over anything else, every time - we will eventually find all the worldly (external) success bestowed on us, at the cost of internal success.

If we decide to choose knowledge over anything else, every time - we will eventually find all the knowledge there is but we will pay the price of that knowledge.

If we decide to choose God over anything else, every time - we will eventually find God though the world may declare us mad.

The point is that making that choice makes us so happy that we DO NOT CARE. Others CANNOT judge anyone who pursues pure happiness since we all are looking for that heightened state of HAPPINESS / PURE BLISS.

But all of this is driven by TRUE and absolutely PURE DESIRE to achieve that end goal and making SACRIFICES that it takes in being true to our goal.

Do we know what we want so that we can choose it every time?

Found a note..

I found an old note in my email from April 2013. It was written in a flow, hastily because I must have thought of it in the middle of something. 

We do see folks go through mental upheaval at the onset of problems, the one that makes them question their purpose, spirituality and life in general. That is pretty normal and can be understood. Now imagine a life that changed its course completely at the mere thought of what his life is and could be. Never in the history, we’ve seen someone leave a perfectly happy and content life, been so shaken by the idea of what human life goes through, give up a perfectly normal, happy and prosperous lifestyle for finding the answers that could grant him peace. For once when the truth is realized, it is pretty difficult to ignore it once again. What causes such uproar in a mind, where the falsity of it all strikes so hard that it is unbearable to the point of no return. Budhha knew it. 

Having some time re-reading it and with 5 years gone by, I think I understand this better. I understand the qualities of the person that can think in this way - sensitive, aware and deeply thoughtful. The clarity comes in a moment - it is like a rude awakening from the stories we spin around us. And yes, once it is known, it cannot be ignored. Ignoring it is not one of the qualities of such a person. 

The meaning of Service

I think 3.5 days in, it dawned on me the real meaning of service. To serve.

When nothing can make one happy from within, service can.

Collect those smiles and build your bank balance.

Service with right intent.

Service with no expectation.

Serve who come to you.

Serve who need you.