Relate

सबकी ममता त्याग बटोरी .. this came up a couple of days after I had realized it on my own. I was able to relate to this statement and hence the author and eventually ended up buying the book. 

A girl who is a little elder but so much wiser, I want her to be my friend. If she is there, I do not need anything else - I can provide instead. 

Why do we have to remember

I had written this some time back - Level Up

We have to remember for the sake of remembrance. Not to achieve anything. Not to meet anybody. Not to get anything at the end. Because there is nothing to get anyways. 

We have to remember because that is who we are. 

We do not want to forget ourselves. 

Everything is a path or process to remember. Whatever it takes, we must remember. 

I am more curious about how did we forget in the first place. What caused the memory loss? Was it Ms. M whose job anyways is to make us forget? Who created M - did we create it and lost control over it? The path to memory loss is easy, the path to remembrance is an uphill battle. 

Today when P said, it should be done for itself - for the sake of itself - it reminded me about this thought that had come to me about remembering. 

Pain

1. Trust the process

2. It is by design - imagine a conveyer belt

3. Sit through the process and pain - moving will disrupt the process and pain will shift elsewhere. It may look that the pain has been relived but it will settle elsewhere and the whole process will start again. It’s painful every way.

4. The pain will becoming soothing after a bit - it’s a sinusoidal wave - it does become better if we have the patience to follow the process by all design principles.

5. Pain is a teacher. 

6. Pain helps to focus and get attention.

7. Pain is more helpful overall.

8. It diminishes ego. 

9. In the absence of ego the true process can start. 

10. The process is designed to move from gross to subtle sensations.

11. We want the subtle sensations since they are at higher frequencies.

12. Higher frequencies tend to zero. 

13. At some point the bliss starts taking over such that the sensations don’t matter as much and hence right action can be performed. 

14. The bliss keeps you preoccupied and is a happy state of its own - only because it’s like a high and the mind can come up with out of the box ideas. 

15. Shifting the focus changes the state of being. 

16. We become all powerful and come closer to the essence 

Sitting

As I sat, I felt as a blob of pain. Like a whole blob that is sitting on that mat. I moved and the pain was relieved for a bit. But it started again - as it shifted. It started again from zero. What would have happened if the movement had not happened? I know that - I have done that before. 

What if the energy ray can shine when it is absolutely still? If it moves, its shine dims. What if the stillness is needed to shine. 

So grow where you are planted. "महलों में रखें चाहे झोपड़े में वास दे...". Live through what has to be. Sit Still. 

Level Up

Why did we forget ourselves and? Why do we have to remember?

We have to remember who we are at all times so that we can be the single ray of consciousness that we are. The calm face that I saw is our identity or rather the essence of that figure is our identity. The further away we are from that center, the more comical we look. If we remember who we are, we will never act silly because being that requires absolute integrity on principles and being a true human. While we are totally aware, we can "pretend" to be silly just for fun, but we cannot "be" silly. If we remember this at all times, we can get to the next level where everyone abides by the eternal laws at all times and can see cosmic dance for what it is. What happens from there? A says this group then evolves to understand the mass consciousness and proceeds from there to get to the next level. When does this leveling up stops?

Ingrain

Everything has a rise and fall - everything - sensations in my body, my feelings, my thoughts, events, people and everything that I can think of. Everything has to be observed without any associated aversion or attraction. It needs to be ingrained in my psyche. 

#walkingmeditation

Exercising in gym bores me to death but walking does not. I can walk for hours especially when I am alone. All I need is my phone and headphones. I took to serious walking in 2020 during pandemic days when the best places to visit were open parks and grounds - away from crowd and people. I got better at it as I started doing trails and soon it turned into the only form of exercise that I'd want to do anytime. So much so that when I do not have anything to do, my mind always checks if I'd should go for a walk. When I came across this article that Maria posted on Twitter, I was happy to see that it articulates exactly why I like it! 

See - Walking as Creative Fuel: A Splendid 1913 Celebration of How Solitary Walks Enliven “The Country of the Mind”

Some favorites from this article:

"Of course the best sort of walk is the one on which it doesn’t matter twopence whether you get anywhere at all at any time or not; and the second best is the one on which the hard facts of routes, times, or trains give you nothing to worry about."

-- Wendell Berry

"For company too often means compromise, discretion, the choice of the sweetly reasonable."

"Not a fiftieth part of all your happy imaginings will you ever, later, recapture, note down, reduce to dull inadequate words; but meantime the mind has stretched itself and had its holiday."

"But all these are only the by-products, the casual gains, of walking alone. The high converse, the high adventures, will be in the country of the mind."

-- Kenneth Grahame

“I walk everywhere in the city. Any city. You see everything you need to see for a lifetime. Every emotion. Every condition. Every fashion. Every glory.”

--Maira Kalman

Cycling

When we learn to cycle, the first thing we realize that how hard it is to balance. So we wobble, a little to the left and a little to the right.

In order to practice detached-attachment, we have to let go and let in, over and over again so that we can understand what is the right distance that should be maintained. It is difficult to be in it and observe it but if we can observe it, we can work on it. Every sign of anguish is a sign of frustration actually - just like a child who is learning to walk. You know it, yet you cannot do it. 

New Year, New Post!

Past two months have been this crazy or what! No updates here since Nov... :)

I recovered from the Holiday mood just this past weekend probably. Was able to get into the normal rhythm of things. First hike of the year was long pending. Hoping to be more regular there. 

I love walking aimless in cities, towns and in nature. It's my personal meditation. All I need is a light backpack with essentials, my phone, extra batteries and good walking shoes. I love it! 

My happy place :D

             

Yog

All my planned or accidental mediative attempts have resulted in distinct differentiation of sooksham and sthool - vibrations  resulting in feeling heaviness and lightness at the same time. They separate out and it implies that the lightness can move around. It can move around without me leaving the spot. I was floating but I was also connected. 

I have experienced that movement once - where I move so fast that I can see myself connected with the whole. 

#soundbath #experiences

The meaning of Service

I think 3.5 days in, it dawned on me the real meaning of service. To serve.

When nothing can make one happy from within, service can.

Collect those smiles and build your bank balance.

Service with right intent.

Service with no expectation.

Serve who come to you.

Serve who need you.

23rd Feb

The journey inside is like hurtling in space. Feeling the body dissolve and get to the core of the being. It is all light within. Light and space. And the vastness of universe. Till the body is tuned to the frequency of the oldest sound known - Om. Body resonates at that frequency - everything we know does. Hence the need to listen to the vibrations.

The dimensions are many - it is a multi universe. We are different in different dimensions. Like a 2D brush stroke in this life - the movie plays almost like the clay animation. Our life is a clay animation. The beings know it but they play it out. At lower frequencies matter is dense and can be visualized. At high frequencies it is all energy,  everything we know seems to be made up of threads that go vertical/horizontal mesh close to the image below:

And that is why information can be detected from anywhere in the universe. Information travels fast. It is like awareness. That fast. Everything we know is connected to each other in so many dimensions. But I did see us travelers experiencing this dimension on purpose. And could only see the 3 of us connected through light rope. We are traveling together for a purpose and know no other traveler so far. Have to confirm if they feel the same.

The senses are of no consequence. They distract us. They purposely pull us into this dimension.

And all of us are light / energy. It is easy to see the entire universe in a moment. It is possible. It is the realization of its vastness that fills us with awe. Everything we know is suspended in the frequencies / waves / energy. These words can be used interchangeably because they are one and the same. There is no need to distinguish anything - it is all the same. It is unified, connected and the most simple expression. It is just that it cannot be explained / defined to someone who has never experienced it. The vastness outside of us and the vastness inside of us are one and the same. We can visualize it.

The "sookshm" (subtle) and the "sthool" (apparent) bodies : I understood that since I saw it dissolve. I saw the apparent body dissolve till it was tuned to the frequency of creation. It was a point and a source once. That is when a curtain dropped from the stage. And I realized how easily it was experienced what we have heard. All of it fits and makes sense.