Why do we have to remember

I had written this some time back - Level Up

We have to remember for the sake of remembrance. Not to achieve anything. Not to meet anybody. Not to get anything at the end. Because there is nothing to get anyways. 

We have to remember because that is who we are. 

We do not want to forget ourselves. 

Everything is a path or process to remember. Whatever it takes, we must remember. 

I am more curious about how did we forget in the first place. What caused the memory loss? Was it Ms. M whose job anyways is to make us forget? Who created M - did we create it and lost control over it? The path to memory loss is easy, the path to remembrance is an uphill battle. 

Today when P said, it should be done for itself - for the sake of itself - it reminded me about this thought that had come to me about remembering. 

Ingrain

Everything has a rise and fall - everything - sensations in my body, my feelings, my thoughts, events, people and everything that I can think of. Everything has to be observed without any associated aversion or attraction. It needs to be ingrained in my psyche. 

New Year, New Post!

Past two months have been this crazy or what! No updates here since Nov... :)

I recovered from the Holiday mood just this past weekend probably. Was able to get into the normal rhythm of things. First hike of the year was long pending. Hoping to be more regular there. 

I love walking aimless in cities, towns and in nature. It's my personal meditation. All I need is a light backpack with essentials, my phone, extra batteries and good walking shoes. I love it! 

My happy place :D

             

Puzzle

When I finally recognized the importance of a connection, all I can say is that things fell in their place. Everything. Sometimes to view something clearly, we need to pan out - to see the whole picture - why did something happen the way it happened. It's as if a jigsaw puzzle started making sense. You see, it seems chaotic, when the puzzle pieces are handed to you one by one but once it creates some sort of pattern upon slow, painful connections - it suddenly fits and makes sense. You know it is a particular pattern. You do not have the full picture yet, but you have a sense of where this is going. That sense itself is calming because it implies there is a direction and hence a meaningful end. It's not all wasted, it's not all inexplaniable - it means something. To a seemingly directionless soul, this means a lot. 

You see, the soul is not lost - it never was. 

Like a friend told to me - "To be stuck in the Phantom zone only to realize that one was Superman" all this while! 

In Love

"If your soul is not ready to surrender to another soul, don't tell anyone you're in love."

- Shams Tabrez

Home

• The expectation of permanence from mortals is naive. That kind of state can only be achieved with self and the extension of self (Atman and Paramatman). 
• This thought brings freedom - to do anything without expecting anything from anyone. The subconscious fear of change cannot drive self anymore. 
• What we seek in the other, already exists in us. Only we can fulfill ourselves completely. Others can only be catalysts and can make us think/realize alone. That's their role. The actual realization needs to come from us. 
• Any change induced in self to be accepted by others is an aberration. It is wrong. It is self harming. 
• Remember, who you are. 
• The presence I was looking for in my own home is already living there. What freedom and what joy! I come back to the home that already has that presence. 
• We are all alone in this journey, truly alone. Everyone and everything else around us just helps us till we need their help to come to this realization. This realization is not an unhappy one. It is very liberating; as if some weight has lifted. It brings satisfaction and joy of finally knowing. 
• It is my job to be present for others but I cannot make them evolve till they themselves are ready to evolve. 
• So now that I know this, let me have a nice time and do everything that I love to do!

In the moment

To be in the moment means giving all the attention to who and what is in front - without any other thoughts than what should be needed for the moment. It truly connects one with the another. 

Authentic

I have always sought authenticity in relationships. I am a private person and I need to be comfortable with people around me. And I appreciate people who learn and grow.

Somehow authenticity is negotiable in the world though - I was surprised to know that many women I know know that they have hit the block and they have learnt to be in that. For many an authentic relationship is not a priority if they have everything else, though they would like to have it. But since no one else has it, it is a unicorn, a myth that doesn't exist. I somehow start suffocating if the relationship is not authentic and everything else is available. This has been my pattern throughout. It has got me into great trouble. But it has given me immense joy - they were short-lived but they have always been moments of pure joy. I have been at peace in those moments, days and years.

Though I have learnt that with age, that at sometime we have to accept ourselves and others equally to rediscover that joy. Of course it needs to be reciprocated otherwise it still is a one sided relationship. Everyone has a different process to feel fulfilled. My process it convoluted for many. And I cannot live like them. And that is fine. 

I’d have liked 3 folks to have met. It would’ve been fun to observe.
It is impossible in every way now. 🙄😁

Pure

Our purpose in anyone's life is to make them think and lead by example. So just by being ourselves, we are doing the task. Just by being our true self, we are purifying our soul and everyone who comes in contact will learn. They have no choice but to notice the difference.

Whatever the ego teaches or the conditional upbringing or experiences are picked up - they all melt away when we come face to face with a pure soul.